So, if you weren't already aware....i'm letting you in on the insanity now. I'M GOING TO EGYPT! I'll be honest, I was a little nervous things wouldn't work out with Egypt. I mean, to be fair, there is a bit of a government upheaval going on over there so plans could always change last minute. BUT, for now, I am going to enjoy the delirious excitement of knowing that in a little over 2 months I will be in the land of Pyramids.
I wish I could put into words how mixed up my emotions have been. I'm OVER THE MOON with excitement to be going. I've dreamed of seeing the pyramids since second grade when I discovered ancient history. Now, though, as it looms before me, I'm starting to freak out a bit. Did I make the right choice? Will homesickness hit worse than if I'd gone somewhere else? Is it worth to go to a country knowing so little of the language? What about my tattoo?? Is that going to get me in trouble?? While my excitement remains, the past few days I have been overwhelmed with the feeling of uncertainty about my choice to go to Cairo. However, per usual, God has been absurdly faithful in taking care of me and knowing my needs even when I haven't asked for His help.
Within the past 48 hours I have spoken to 3 or 4 different people about going to Egypt, and while they know the dangers and I told them about my family's fears, they were all beyond encouraging. They would say things like "..everywhere's dangerous, you can't stop living just because of that." "That's crazy girl, I love that you're doing something so different." "Think of the amazing time you'll get to see in Egypt's history!" It's so simple but God knew exactly what I needed to hear to get me through these past few days. I needed that reminder that I am where i'm supposed to be, even if that place is a little bit more dangerous than the ideal.
I'll admit it, I have a problem. I love to shock people. I like the looks i get when I chop my hair, I liked the reaction I got when I got a tattoo, I love doing things that people say I can't/won't or simply don't expect from me. But this time, it goes beyond that. I CRAVE adventure that I simply cannot get in Charlottesville. There's simply something magical about this crazy world we've been placed in and I ache to discover it. I see pictures of foreign places and I need to leave. I am not content to just sit and let the world around me go to waste. I want to see, do, feel, experience, live. If that means going somewhere a little bit crazy, so be it. I am confident that God has me right where he wants me. What plans He has in store for this adventure I don't know, but for now I am content that He does. If that means going somewhere where my faith is going to be a daily challenge, I'm okay with that. I want to be so shattered spiritually that there is nothing I can do but crawl back to the source of joy. Well Egypt, let's do this thing.
I wish I could put into words how mixed up my emotions have been. I'm OVER THE MOON with excitement to be going. I've dreamed of seeing the pyramids since second grade when I discovered ancient history. Now, though, as it looms before me, I'm starting to freak out a bit. Did I make the right choice? Will homesickness hit worse than if I'd gone somewhere else? Is it worth to go to a country knowing so little of the language? What about my tattoo?? Is that going to get me in trouble?? While my excitement remains, the past few days I have been overwhelmed with the feeling of uncertainty about my choice to go to Cairo. However, per usual, God has been absurdly faithful in taking care of me and knowing my needs even when I haven't asked for His help.
I'll admit it, I have a problem. I love to shock people. I like the looks i get when I chop my hair, I liked the reaction I got when I got a tattoo, I love doing things that people say I can't/won't or simply don't expect from me. But this time, it goes beyond that. I CRAVE adventure that I simply cannot get in Charlottesville. There's simply something magical about this crazy world we've been placed in and I ache to discover it. I see pictures of foreign places and I need to leave. I am not content to just sit and let the world around me go to waste. I want to see, do, feel, experience, live. If that means going somewhere a little bit crazy, so be it. I am confident that God has me right where he wants me. What plans He has in store for this adventure I don't know, but for now I am content that He does. If that means going somewhere where my faith is going to be a daily challenge, I'm okay with that. I want to be so shattered spiritually that there is nothing I can do but crawl back to the source of joy. Well Egypt, let's do this thing.
"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11
